Last night I had me a dream son
The end of the world could be seen
No sign of life could I feel son
Nothing was what it had been

Black as the night, life out of sight
You can't imagine the scene

Last night I had me a dream son
The end of the world could be seen
I didn't know where to turn son
The absence of life was obscene

The end of time or just in my mind
I know that it's hard to believe

And I can almost see the end of the world
And I can almost see the end of the world
So give me a minute
And I'll put you in it
But you must never return

It could occur any day son
Just you remember and pray
You have what you love
Now love what you have
And maybe then you will last a bit longer

Last night I had me a dream son
The strangest that I'd ever seen
Yes you were there and you were
Telling everybody not to worry
Just let it be
Then you led me to believe
Everything happens in threes
But as you spoke then I awoke
Only to find that we'd arrived
At the end of the world.


the other day i heard The Living End on the radio..i am now sad

Date:	2003-12-16 20:24
Subject:	yawn
Security:	Public
Mood:	mellow

apparently the faculty thinks of me as a slacker. the dean talked to me today (did you know we had a dean? i didnt) and asked me why i wasn't doing my work. i gave her an honest answer: i am lazy. she told me i had to "get my butt in gear", those words exactly. stupid progress reports. stupid school work. what's it worth in the end anyway?
i got a yard stick of gum today. "secret angel" person gave it to me, i was very excited as you can imagine.
okay, im bored, later

tonight was good. i went to the mall and loned it. i love going to the mall by myself, no one bothering me with where they want to go, unless im in the mood to be social. well jenna was supposed to come with me but then she couldnt =( oh well, some kids in the food court kept yelling at every girl that walked by making it very hard for me to enjoy my cinnabon so i told them to shut the hell up and they did, they left shortly after and i was content. i've noticed that i like being alone lately. i dont know what it is, maybe i've gained more confidence but two years ago i would have never been able to go anywhere by myself, now i thoroughly enjoy it. it gives me time to think straight and form conclusions on certain topics.
i think my dad thinks im depressed or something. i dunno, but he kept bothering me yesterday asking me what's wrong, i can't really blame him though, i usually talk to him more but i've been unusually quiet around him lately. its not that anything is bothering me i just choose to be silent. is there anything wrong with that?
much love

Date:	2003-11-25 19:02
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful

I wish..
..i was talented
..i wasn't so lazy
..i could love someone without paranoia
..someone beyond family would love me
..he could find a home for his family
..he would realize there's so much in that head
..she wouldn't want to die
..that one hadn't left
..i knew who i was
..i was beautiful
..people would quit smoking
..he would see me
..nations wouldn't war
..peace would overcome me

I dreamed..
..i made an impact
..i loved someone freely and fully
..he loved me for who i am
..a man found a mansion
..she found meaning to her life
..he came back
..with no pollution
..a cloud covered this world and placed a utopia over it
..i could make my dreams come true

I pray..
..i'll find something worth dying for
..grace will reign despite human error
..she will believe in the love she's been given
..that someone would come my way
..he made the right decision
..love will no longer be a burden
..this prayer makes sense
..for glory to come
..He's listening

Date:	2003-11-25 18:10
Subject:
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Mood:	calm

wow, people actually commented on my entry, i feel popular, kinda. jenna ate my sandwich today, yeah thanks for that. then she decided to share with matt. i was starving by 4th block. sigh, i love my friends. oh yeah jenna, in case you didnt know, there was a dead bug in that sandwich...just to let you know. either way today was a decent day, everything seemed to flow which was calming and made me happy. still hungry
later

Date:	2003-11-24 19:34
Subject:	...
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah

I finally got this damn thing to work, about time. Still gotta do a bunch of homework but I've been talking to Jenna this whole time about random crap. Eventually I stumbled upon the conclusion that some people are not worth time, only a select few of course.
Theres a really annoying sound coming from my radiator. I'm going to go kick it.
later